Satisfaction

When does it come about, this satisfaction...is it even attainable? I mean if life was or is all good, then would "all good" just be normal and one still long for even better? Is the grass greener on the other side, or is it simply harder to manage? I don't know. I tend not to think about satisfaction-not that I am not satisfied in life, but I tend not to dwell upon it...question it. Things could be better, or at least that which I imagine is better but Lord knows, things and this life I live could be worse. I wonder do all people feel this way...even those we view from a far, the movie stars, atheletes, wealthy and famous...it would seem that when you watch TV or read the tabloids theirs is not a life without pain...without want of a different existence. Many lack the whole satisfaction terminology in their vocabulary. The want for more, material, fame, fortune, celebrity-all forces those seeking into a tunnel of an existence. Burrowing farther and farther away from contentment, and into the unrealistic.

But I am not seeking satisfaction with millions of dollars, and unfathomable celebrity...I am seeking satisfaction with self first and foremost and then with this life I am living. It is a journey, and on it there will be adventures, heartache, joy, sadness, breakthrough and growth. Satisfaction...

I am attempting to make the space I live in better...a remodeling project of sorts. That I think will make me far more satisfied with my home. Even happy with it. I love my house now, but after the "successful remodel" I will really be in love, like deep marriage type love :-) It will also aid me in being satisfied with life. Where you rest your head every night has a definitive affect on how you feel about yourself. I am proud of the steps I am attempting, and I pray GOD watches over the project and my decisions. I am working too, on my body to be more satisfied with my appearance and health. These two things, will provide the foundation to be satisfied in other aspects of my being...from relationships with others to the ultimate relationship with self.

I think satisfaction is all about discipline. Nothing will be perfect everyday...nothing will feel good all the time, but if you are disciplined in your approach to living and accept that which you cannot change, all the while seeking out the beauty in the misunderstood-then you can attain a level of satisfaction with your life. To thy own self be true...