Timelines

Life is a series of timelines...how much time will it take to get here, or there? When will I complete this project, this degree program...this workday. I think sometimes we live so much in between the timeline, that we kinda lose sight of that which is going on inside of it. I mean, you can become hell bent on completing something and find out that you never enjoyed what you were doing in the process. It should not always be about the reward...the story is not written just to get to the conclusion. It is often the story itself that makes it all worth while.

Perhaps I too am guilty of lessening the value of the journey for want of the destination. To live without parameters and essentially enjoy the very essence of each day...maybe I will have to throw away my watch and allow life to dictate time with no rule....maybe for at least a few hours a week. LOL

Ages...

It has been ages since a put words on this page

and today

well...I have aged

aged as if any day but on this one in particular

particularly the day before

I became one more

year older

stronger...wiser

I'm told a good man

is hard

to locate when you looking

so I look at me

and see the reflection of

years gone by

and hopes of tomorrow

dancing in my own eyes

I am the future

redesigned by time

35...

The Presumptive Nominee

Words are powerful...yet no matter how much the moment is lessened by unnecessary adjectives the media seems to develop at a moment's notice-such as presumptive-it has happened. The unfathomable has occurred. For the first time in American history, an African-American has received the nomination from one of the two political parties in the United States. The Democratic party has chosen Barack Obama as their respective nominee for President of the United States. It is a grand moment. One that fills me with pride, and a deep regard for my fellow Americans who have turned the page on possibility and wrote a new chapter in the book of American Dreams. We, in this moment, have moved beyond skin color and begun to see ability for what it truly is-the power, intelligence, and determination of one's spirit to make our country better for us all.

Now, do not think that I believe the fight is over. No, on the contrary, the battle for true equality begins today. As one pundit put it, Obama has been largely speaking to the choir with regard to agenda and during the fight for the nomination...now, he will speak to the entirety of the congregation...the congregation of America and seek their buy-in. But will they listen?

Convicted...

I have never really felt like anything was permanent. Not my relationships, not my status in life...not even my feelings about my own existence. What does permanence mean? The opposite of temporary? Forever? Well, today, right now at this moment I feel a sense of permanence...in my conviction to serve God. I have been in a conversation all evening about when and where to serve as well as being posed the question of time that I will serve...all in the name of love. The questions came not from those who doubt my assertion, but who use caution when they speak of the Almighty. At the time of our conversation I felt even more convicted, but now I sit here and try to make sure that was not because of the moment that I found myself within, or truly because the spirit is all that my conviction is about.


It must be understood, that everyone does not believe in God. Nor of those that do, do all believe in him the same way. There are a multitude of variations of belief-yet only one God. In my system he controls all things, planet and universe, and all within it. I believe your path in life is written, and based on the decisions you make along the way you will live and meet your destiny. I cannot prove this theory-but it is mine and I embrace it. I also believe that God speaks to me...not some crazy voice in the night but within my spirit he provides guidance, and through the lessons of life I find ways to apply it. I ask myself have I ever totally trusted God, and I cannot answer. I want to say yes, but if I analyze my actions carefully I may say no. Not all the time. But that is why this revelation, this conviction that I feel is so important now.

I must trust in God...in the decisions that I have made and pray on all those that I even think to make in the future. Though I waver, and struggle to stay on the path of righteousness I am convicted in my belief of the Almighty-and that his power governs my existence.

Took an L...

I made it to the District level competition in Toastmasters...and well, that is where I made it to. I took a royal butt kicking tonight; I did not even place in the top 3. I know this does not say I cannot give a speech, but as far as TM technique goes, well, I just aint got it so to speak. I dont know if I can have it...but that is the defeat talking. Still, I met some wonderful people and it was a blessing to be in the competition at all. If I had practiced more, and perhaps took it a bit more seriously than who knows. Anyway, in conjunction with that someone vandalized my car today. Paint on it, scratch-real petty. So this Saturday was not so good...glad tomorrow is here. Maybe Sunday will be better.