Sunday, July 21, 2013

Faded Hiatus

So I have been out of the office for 3 weeks...the first to take care of my sick 2-year old son, but the next two to write and basically move myself into the zone of finishing this dissertation.  It has been a grind, but also a lovely experience to just be researching, interviewing, thinking and doing at least a lil bit of writing.  Now-well, I gots to go back to the gig.  It is always difficult after being out for a while to get back into the saddle-but I have to hit the ground running.  There is a lot of different moving parts at my job and well I have to get everything in order and quickly.  I may not be there, so much mentally right now but it is where I have to be.

I have spent an inordinate amount of time on here trying to get my mind right...this is sort of like my safe space.  In between words and sentences...consonants and punctuation-I am free in this space.  Writing just whatever comes to mind.  That is even what I have been doing with the dissertation, however it comes to mind.  Tomorrow...well, it will be different.  The difference for me is though, well, I have to approach it all in a different way.  Only take on what I feel I can handle in a particular moment.  Understand that it is not about me, but the process of getting work done.  Empower others.  Lastly, don't take it all so seriously.

Prayerfully I can listen more, talk less, and just allow myself to fall back into to work.  Another hour it will be a new day.  Not back to the same, but on to a more positive perspective.  Pray for me yall.

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