Heartbeat...

So it all became just that much more real today. I heard the heartbeat of my child. It was a powerful sound-the sound of life inside my most precious treasure, my wife. I did not know exactly how I would feel when I first heard it, but it was almost surreal. Like I was watching another couple on television...crazy huh? A little baby is growing in there...I saw a glimpse of life on the screen and I could only pause, gasp...wow. I actually taped the heartbeat on my phone as we sat there and listened to my wife's belly. Who are you? What will you be like? Are you okay? No answers...just whoosh, whoosh, whoosh...like waves of the ocean crashing against the shore. We are out here waiting for you...whoosh, whoosh, whoosh. Life man. God is great.

I don't know what being a parent will feel like. It has not hit me yet. The morning sickness, and all that is hitting my wife, but I am the constant observer and provider. I am not going through this as she is, but I am going through something. A range of emotions, heart beating faster with every thought of the magnitude of this moment-whoosh, whoosh, whoosh...right, we are both anxious. The baby to be...to live...to exist. Me, anxious to hold, care for, watch...teach...help grow. Anxious. Whoosh, whoosh, whoosh...my heart can't stop beating fast. Crazy right. A baby that God has created for us. What a responsibility, and a blessing...an honor.

I sit here now and write this. Both mommy and the little one are fast asleep...least I think so. My heartbeat has slowed down...and the nervousness of the day is dissipating. I can breathe a little easier because everything was okay. We are fine. This is the most amazing day of my life. But I think there are more to come.